I lost a little piece of me yesterday, my ratty is gone :(

my little girl died suddenly yesterday. i found her laying on the bottom of her 3 level house with evidence that she has tumbled down. She was laying on her side, struggling to breath. Vet had just cleared her of pneumonia and i thought we were right on track with her URI. guess whatever killed her got the best of her.

I tried nebulizing her, that did not help. It use to. she couldnt even stand and kept struggling to keep her head up. she was doing the most painful to watch crawling thing trying to find a comfortable spot. Her little feet were so cold and so was her body. I held my little girl close and told her how much she means to me. she kept struggling. i put her higher on my neck so keep her as warm as possible. she jerked a couple of times and died. with her eyes left open. her heart stopped beating. i could not believe it. the tears...oh the tears. she turned still within 30 seconds. within minutes her little ears and feet starting to turn color. i couldnt bear the truth. it was turning into a horror show. i stroked her ears, her nose, her neck. it use to make her brux. she no longer bruxed. she was cold, stiff and changing color. i left her in her favorite spot over the next 3-4 hours on an off-case of " what if" and " omg i cannot believe she died . did she really die???". walking over to her with tears to pet her every few minutes.


Finally i got up and started cleaning her palace. So this morning when i wake up i would know that i did not dream it. She in fact, did die. She is gone.

and it is 7 feet of snow outside and i cannot even give her proper burial until i can dig out my back yard. My little ball of joy and love is in a box with her favorite towel, toys and a chew toy, her favorite paper towels and a blankie- is in a freezer. awaiting spring.

my heart is broken. i cannot stop crying.

i love and miss her very much.

thank you for reading.

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Jul 27, 2016
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I lost a little piece of me yesterday, my ratty is gone :(.
by: Anonymous

I did not even see anyone's comments until today!! reading back on my original post and comments i still get teared up. Over my own little girl and over all of your losses. She's been gone for 1.5 years and still till this day i sometimes talk to her. Or ask my cat if she has seen her. It makes me feel better. No, the cat won't tell me if she has seen the ratty( bitch lol, and on an off chance that cats actually see ghosts- if you never had a cat stare into NOTHING and then all of a sudden bolt- nothing beats that weird feeling that they see something we don't).Yep, i'm that crazy person who talks to her pets. The cat is a rescue, and so was my ratty. My boyfriend also has a huge dog, so we use to have the entire "food chain". No matter dog/cat/rat/lizard/pokemon- we are all responsible for their well-being and it breaks my heart when we can't help out little ones. I went onto the rainbow bridge site and wrote a ulogy. It also helped. Thank you for the creators of the page and to everyone who cares for these wonderful little creatures. They really are delightful and sweet and funny.

Jul 27, 2016
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My deepest condolences for your Ratty
by: Frismaya

Hi there,

I found your page just right after I wrote my own grief..

I read your story and it made me cry as well.. I really feel your loss.. I loss my ratty 3 days ago... and it was similar story with yours but the ending was just I decided to go to the vet after she had breathing problem the whole night (I also tried to warm her, nebulizing her etc). Then Vet and me decided to put her to sleep.... worst day of my life, I cried so much in fact I am still very sad right now.. I have no motivation to socialize with people or to do anything.. big part of me left, she's just like my own child.

How are you coping with the pain...? my chest still hurts... I'm a little bit better day by day but still, I can't believe that my ratty is gone.. I visit her grave everyday. and talk to her just to say I miss her...

hugs

Feb 29, 2016
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So sorry! :(
by: Anonymous

Im so sorry for you loss! I cried reading your post. I know EXACTLY how you feel. We have had pet dwarf hamsters for years. Its so hard when they die. The most recent one was over two years old. We knew he wasnt going to make it much longer, so I TRIED bto prepare myself. One morning, the girls were already at school. They played with him as usual before they left. I went to give him a reat & noticed he was moving very slow. I held him & talked to him and cried until he took his lat breath... We now have a new hamster AND 3 adorable male rats. The girls & I LOVE all of them so much. Its so hard for anyone but a rodent lover to understand how much one can love these sweet little creatures. Everyone loves their dogs & cats and its okay for people to be devastated when they pass... no one but a rat or rodent owner feels the pain for someone else whose rattie or hammie dies like we do. People laugh & say "Its just a RAT!" when we cry over our ratties passing...but wwe LOVE our rats as much as others love their dogs & cats!!!! HUGS to you!!!!!

Oct 19, 2015
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by: Anonymous

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Jun 04, 2015
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At the top of the rainbow
by: Anonymous

I am sorry about the loss of your pet. My Horse died on Sunday, May 31, 2015. I know what it is to lose your best friend, your "everything". I had him for over 16 years and he was 19 years old. One thing that helps me each day is that when I think of him and all the things we did together and the joy, I keep those thoughts on the "high" part of the rainbow. I try not to think of the sadness of losing him because that brings everything down. I want to support his new life on the other side, on the happy side wherever he may be - so I will support him and think of him like that, without the down side. I hope you can do that too for your little friend. It will genuinely help you too!

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