Missing My Squeakers

by Danielle

I'm 31 years old and had never owned a rat before. On Christmas day of 2012 I had finally had enough and left my long term boyfriend and moved out of our house. I got a small studio apartment and was feeling pretty lonely. I didn't think it would be fair to keep a dog or cat in such a small space so I started researching rats as I heard they were very affectionate and intelligent. I wasn't planning on bringing a rat home the February night I came across Squeakers at Petsmart as my research had told me to go to a breeder not a pet store. I was merely there to price supplies when I wandered by his cage. He was a BIG boy and had no cage mates, he looked lonely (just like me). I asked to see him and asked a little about him. The girl said he had been at the store for about 6 months and they had tried to give him cage mates but he just wasn't feeling it. I held him (which he was not fond of) and knew I had to take him home. His white fur was matted and sticky and stinky from urine and he just looked sad and there was no way I could leave him there. So I got the supplies and Squeakers and home we went. Over the next few days he really opened up! One of the doors of his 4 level cage opened right onto the sofa so whenever I was at home I would wheel his cage by the sofa and open the door so he could come and go as he pleased. He loved to sit on the sofa and groom himself and me. He was very good at keeping my nails and cuticles clean and well groomed. He loved being scratched behind his big dumbo ears and on the top of his head and when you scratched just the right spot he would wag his tail. I used to tell him he was my pocket Chihuahua. It was really neat to see his personality just blossom. Not long after I got him (and only within about a week and a half's time) a large tumor (about the size of an apricot) developed on his side. I found an exotics vet and we had it removed. He recovered well and continued to be his funny and mischievous self. Not long ago he discovered how to get off the sofa and go exploring. He never went far and always came when I called him. All I had to do was give him a block of food and he take it and run back into his cage. He was such a smart boy. Then, a week ago today he started squealing in pain as he was grooming. I checked him and couldn't see anything wrong.Monday morning we went to the vet and she thought he might have bladder stones or a uti. She put him on antibiotics and pain meds and we scheduled a re-check in 14 days. Tuesday night as we were chilling on the sofa I noticed he was bleeding. I picked him up and he was bleeding significantly from his "gentleman's region". I sat him in the tub and over the span of about 2 hours he passed 3 large blood clots. After the 3rd clot came out the bleeding stopped and he was actually acting much better. Almost like he hadn't been sick the past few days. I spoke to the vet Wednesday morning and she said since he was acting better to watch him and continue his meds. Wednesday night he wasn't eating much or being real active but he would take treats and water when offered by hand and didn't seem to be in pain. This continued on until Friday. But Friday he wouldn't take any food or water. I took the day off and got a vet appointment for 4:30. We spent the day cuddling on the couch. I have him pets and kisses and sang "you are my sunshine" to him. By mid afternoon his breathing was not looking too good and not long before the vet appointment it looked like he couldn't move his hind legs well. We made it to the vet's office and I was cuddling him in his blanket in the waiting room when the nurse came out to take some notes. I uncovered him so she could see and that's when I noticed his little back feet and tummy were turning purple from lack of oxygen. Right then and there I knew I had to let him go. The nurse rushed us into a room, and the rest is history. I held him, I talked to him, I kissed him and sang "you are my sunshine" to him one last time. I miss him so much it's unbelievable. I hate looking at the corner where his cage was. He gave me something to look forward to coming home to every night, he made me laugh and smile, he was my tv and movie buddy and I could tell him anything and everything and he wouldn't judge. And now he's not there. I only had him for a short time but he truly was my sunshine during some of my darkest days. I have lost other pets over the years but this one has hit me particularly hard. I have an overwhelming guilt, not for ending his suffering (that was the right thing to do) but my guilt is for not having his body or ashes returned to me. I feel like I abandoned him there. But I don't have a yard to bury him and keeping his ashes in an urn on a shelf just seems weird because I know he's not there...he's at Rainbow Bridge. I set up a little area for him with my favorite picture of him in a nice frame and his chew stick that he had been working on and a candle that I light in his memory. Still the guilt and the sadness consume me. I miss my sweet Squeakers, my sunshine so bad.

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Mar 30, 2017
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by: Anonymous

Truly heartbreaking. I will keep it in my mind for long. I lost my little boy 3 weeks ago. I still can t believe he is just gone... He brought so much light in my life and it s gone. I keep thinking about him, i miss him so much it hurts. This void in me is huge... I send you lots of love! And remember "pain will come with time but time will heal the pain" xxxxxx

Mar 30, 2017
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by: Kata

This is such a heartbreaking story. I will keep it in my heart for long. Always when I think of it I feel like crying. I lost my little boy 3 weeks ago. I still can t believe he is just gone. He left such void in me... I miss him every day. I send you lots of love and remember... "Pain will come with time but time will heal the pain" xxxxxxxxxxxx

May 17, 2016
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Daugher pet rat Roosey Woosey Woosey NEW
by: Anonymous

My daughters pet rat 'Roosevelt' died today. At the beginning of April, we took her to a small animal boarding place where she stayed for a week. Within a couple of days after returning home she fell ill. She apparently had contracted pneumonia and because it wasn't obvious, the lung damage was done by the time we realised and she was put on antibiotics. I can't explain enough what a wonderful little creature Roosie was. We likened her to a mini dog who adored my daughter and wanted to be with her all the time. She used to spend most of the time out of the cage and we would laugh when she would act all casual in the middle of the floor pretending she wasn't interested in you leaving the room and then would try and make a run for it at the last minute. She spent most of her life either sitting on my daughters knee or on her shoulder and loved lots of cuddles. She also loved following feet around which was really funny. We'd never considered rats before but I can't think of a more personable pet to have. She lit up the house with her personality and will be dearly missed :-(

Oct 25, 2014
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by: richard

I have just posted about my three boys alvin , simon , and Theodor . Alvin died just before three this morning he was two years three months old and the last of the three brothers. He was my best friend and I'm really going to miss him .they are great little friends not pets .he was fine last night .he went to the vet on Tuesday and had a biopsy on a lump they said was just puss and not to worry .he was running round yesterday with his nephews like one of them and now he's gone he would sleep at the bootm of my bed or next to my pillow sometimes at night when he was out.they have such great personalitys there almost human in there actions and emotions. Reading your story made me post mine .thank you.just not looking forward to tell my daughter when she wakes .
Alvin born June 2012 died Oct 25th 2014 my days won't be the same now.

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