im sorry, gilbert

i had convinced my mum to buy me my first rat a few months ago, and when we went to pick one out i fell in love with one, he was a lovely golden/apricot colour and very placid. i knew i wanted to take him home, and i did, i named him gilbert and he was a very energetic rat. he tried to take a nip out of me through the cage when we got home which kinda put me off for awhile but i still loved him distantly, a few weeks ago my family left for thailand. we had made sure gilbert was comfortable with his hammock and plenty of food and water despite not having a friend to play with. my uncle was supposed to look after him. but when we got back he was larger but skinnier, i could feel his spine and his feet and tail were cold. he was also making a weird weeze/cough noise. but i dismissed it like the inexperienced firstimer i was. i still remember the last night. he wouldnt stop cuddling into my shoulder and i couldve held him a little longer but i didnt and in the morning my mum came in and said he died trying to eat a carrot. i.. didnt realise how attached to him i was until that moment. i shouldve known rats cant handle what seems to be little colds to us, i couldve cuddled him longer, gave him a friend, given him more treats but hes freaking gone and i cant even say sorry to him properly. im so sorry, i never shouldve been allowed to keep such a precious creature. im not worthy to be responsible for such a pure existence. im sorry.

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Jan 06, 2017
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ITS OK NEW
by: Anonymous

Similar situation happened to me. My rat never liked to cuddle as much because she was such an active rat but once she got really sick she suddenly wanted to curl on up on me. I let her for a while but hesitated alittle telling her hey you're gonna be fine. Next day when we took her to the vet I decided to put her to sleep. Gilbert wanted to cuddle with you because he trusted you and knew you loved him, you could have left him locked up in his cage all day before he died and he still would have known that.

Oct 15, 2016
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Don't worry NEW
by: Anonymous

I know what it is like to lose a friend. From what I just read, you gave him the best life possible.

Sep 19, 2016
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I feel u NEW
by: Darren Riggen

I understand
U never know how attached u r until they passed
No matter how long or prepared u r...your never ready
Talk to me if u need help, k?

-Darren

Sep 19, 2016
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I feel u NEW
by: Darren Riggen

I understand
U never know how attached u r until they passed
No matter how long or prepared u r...your never ready
Talk to me if u need help, k?

-Darren

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